It's like someone scooped me all out
and ate all of the good parts.
But this erratic heartbeat greets me day and night
and it reminds me I'm alive
even if there are no lights on inside.
I know it gets better.
I can recall sunnier weather
when all the bad things hide out of sight.
I just can't reach it right now.
And I remember what it is to love
but I'm a drowning girl
with a hand shoving me down, down, down.
I'm all hollow like a jack-0-lantern.
My smiles are just as fake.
But someone put their light inside of me
and gradually I'm not just alive
I'm living once more.
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